A shallow research

I will never deny the fact that I am addicted to fashion and clothes. I told you before, I am one of the girls who always wears beautiful and chic outfits, no matter the occasion. It's not that I spend a crazy amount of time in front of the mirror, but I've learned to always look my best with minimal efforts. What I haven't learned in all those years of perfecting my looks is how to reduce the price tag. Sure, I don't spend all my money on my wardrobe, and I don't buy things that are more expensive than my rent, but I still tend to overspend on clothing. 

How many of you haven't had this kind of dilemma: on one side, you shouldn't spend more, but on the other, it's a great deal for a beautiful piece, and what's 60 dollars after all? Budgeting comes easily when it's about everything else in life, but for some reason, I can't help buying for my closet even when I really, really should not. I don't consider myself as a shopaholic either. Wouldn't buy anything because it's on sale or trendy. I just happen to be really good at composing outfits and have a good taste. 

It is as if clothes were an extension of myself, and I don't want to wear something that isn't truly expressing who I am on the inside. Shallow? Yes, for sure. But also very true. I'm not saying I'm right, I'm saying that this is how I feel about dressing up, and what goes through my head when I'm buying something.

This fall especially, I felt like I needed a big change in my life,and shopping appeared to be the perfect solution. Over the last year, I've grown a lot as a person. I feel different, more mature and my perspective on life has changed a lot. But one thing remains the same, and it's this greed of new clothes to wear all the time. That part of my life has not changed yet. A crazy amount of money I could have saved was used to get new tops, bottoms, shoes… Now I feel a little bit silly for doing so, but at the same time I'm wearing something cozy and pretty that makes me feel good about myself.

Because that is probably the deeper reason of my tendency to overspend on clothing. The need to change skin and find a new way of feeling better about myself and my body. I want to wear items that express who I am on the inside, because I am afraid that the person you see on the outside is not representative enough of my true self. Or maybe I just haven't found a balance between the inside and the outside yet, and my research goes through my closet. And we all know research is expensive.

Starbucks coffee and high heels 

Xoxo